Like everything else, the theory of letting go is so much easier than the practical. I'm in the midst of some letting go and it's been a struggle. And, it seems for me, once I'm hanging on to one thing, I hang onto a bunch of others, holding on so tight to thoughts, beliefs, attitudes that I strangle myself. I'm letting go of things that I thought I'd already let go. Practice hasn't made it perfect.
Three things where I'm trying to let go:
-The Kid is doing a bunch of things to set herself up to teach English overseas for a year. I'm trying to let go of my parental fear. This is a big one and it's sometimes impossible to not be the controlling, lecturing, and paranoid mother. I don't want to be that Mom - I want to be the one who can listen and advise. I need to let go of my ideas of what is right for her life. I need to do this for me and my peace of mind and I need to do it for her. I need to do it to let our relationship grow. I need to do it to restore postive energy balances for both of us.
-I've been fixated on how the weather affects not just my mood, but who I am at my core. This is completely untrue and illogical. I dislike the cold of winter and the shortened hours of daylight. It doesn't define who I am.
-We all have situations and people put into our lives that challenge us. That is reality. I am trying to let go of my judgements to those people and those situations. The acceptance that my own reaction can influence outcomes and relationships is where the value in those challenges lie.
Letting go. It's worth the effort. I prepare myself to be up for the fight so I can have the freedom. I only wish I didn't have to do it so often.
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