Feeling the Bad Vibes

My energy level has been low lately. I've let my winter wimp take over and have avoided going outside. I decided I hate winter and there have been many days when I only left my warm house to go to work, grumbling every minute about even going out for that. I've been thinking that as soon as spring comes, I'll have more energy. I do thrive on warmth and sun. I know that I have some strong SAD tendencies and have learned to push myself to get out and do SOMETHING through the dark and cold days. I haven't pushed myself this year. The consequence has been a snowball through my life, and I was the one rolling that cold and heavy ball, making it larger and larger.

Three things about energy:

-My energy comes both from within and without. While winter might be a small factor in my low energy, my choice to close myself in also closed me off from good energy sources. Hiding in my house, waiting for the warmth of summer also led me to hide from myself and the things I do for peace and joy, to connect.

-My time with Reiki and Tai Chi brings healing and peaceful energy. I need to practice both more often, to pull positive universal energy into my being.

-I am sensitive to the energy put forth by others. I am working on gathering positive energy to myself and sheilding negative energy from myself. As I closed myself in, I also closed myself off. I forgot I have both the ability and the choice to gather and to sheild. I became vulnerable to negative energy and wallowed in it, and began to use that for my life force. I watched from somewhere outside myself and let this happen, and forgot how to stop it. A simple intervention from an intuitive and kind soul today brought me back home, to myself, to my soul, to my energy, to my awareness.

Winter comes every year. My own personal positive and peaceful and poweful energy doesn't depend on the weather. It doesn't depend on having more time. It's within me. I can access it. I can project it. I can use it to protect myself from harm and harmful people. I know it's connected to a greater and larger energy. I've got a good vibe about this, man. Far out.